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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
You must be wondering with what am i overloaded with. Bones? Fats? Work? Teh Teh Teh....all wrong. I am overloaded with ideas and plans for my future! Or did i mention before, my target is to be my own boss and have a childcare or enrichment centre. BUT it must of course be a good one else parents will not send their children in. And now, i must gain experience and yet save enough $. So plans are running at my back brain. Calculation, and whether to go full time or part time into childcare, and considering what other sidelines can help me get some income too.
Meanwhile, i feel like a sucking machine!! I want to learn!!! I want to learn
- Ballroom Dancing (Salsa, Cha Cha, .... )
- Singing
- Yoga
- Piano
And i want to travel! Perhaps to Perth in Mid Oct with Jessie and Angie. So with my target ahead, and yet my desires on hand, i really need to prioritise! Perhaps dancing salsa first as the class is starting in late Aug. And 90 bucks for 6 lessons. Anyone want to join me? Bet i will be going down to register one of these days! :)
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Had my hair permed last Saturday. This time, the curls are more tight but as this is my second time perming, my hair has become quite frizzy. I know this may be bad news but i will try my best to maintain my hair texture and not let it become too dry.
This time round, I went to Plink salon at Far East plaza as the hairstylist i want is there. She start my curls higher up from my ears and at the back, she also perm higher up. Well, i thought the outcome may looks good BUT it turned out that my hair at the side don't look too good. As it makes me look like a COBRA!!! Imagine my hair flat on top and suddenly the perm hair "ooze" out at the ear. Please picture a skinny sexy cobra sszzing....... Ok, i will put my complaints aside and wait for my hair to grow longer so that the curls will be below my ear level instead.
"I can picture Ms Noorlin's face looking very irritated now and thinking why this Carole is never satisfied with her hair, it looks good! Heheheheh!"
Went jogging on Friday night too with Bee and i managed to jog 3 rounds in the stadium. After that, i am sweating profusely but i am feeling very good! As i can feel that i have exercised and my muscles are all used. But this result in 2 achy days. Blame my laziness for not working out!
By the way, my temper seems to be fixed on "short" level.
I am sitting in the salon with all the heavy curls on my head and i am late for my appointment with Ms Peiling. I message her that i will try to reach at 5 and she called me to take my time as she want to see my new hairstyle. Unfortunately by 5, I am still sitting in my salon. We agreed to wait at Haegan Daz instead as Peiling want to sit down and wait. By 5.15, i received a message from her saying that she has wait for me till her temper raise and she has order an ice cream, please pay the bills for her when i arrive. I will not deny, my fire raised and i think this is unreasonable. A few weeks ago, i waited patiently for her for 2 hours yet i did not demand any treat from her. I simply reply back
"Please do not challenge my temper"
With that, i do not see any reply from her anymore. Thinking that i may be quite mean as she is waiting for me (yes, for merely 30 minutes compared to my 2 hours), i message her back that i am on my way and i will help her foot the bill. But i still could not swallowed my temper and i give her a second message.
"Now you can imagine how pek chek i am when i wait for you last time right? 2 hrs! And i did not even call you to treat me"
She did not reply me till when i saw her, she told me that actually she is playing a prank on me. Actually, she did not even go into Haegan Daz. And she say at least from this incident, she can see the REAL me. Yes, please see this side of me. It is a warning to you of not to bully me!!! kkekekeke!!! I argued with her about the 2 hours wait and guess what she say? As that day, my luck is not good and my whole Saturday kinda suck. So she say is my LUCK that pull her down and make her forget to take her stuffs and that is why she is so late. OK, be it a joke of hers or not, i have learnt to retort back whenever she pull any bully stunts on me! HMPH!
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
After that incident, i have actually "slim down" and my wonderful hard-earned meat are gone. So imagine i am back to bones again. Ok, maybe not that bad, or maybe it is!!! *Sob Sob!* Jessie say that i am now as skinny as i am in poly. Wow, this is not a compliment at all. Working in a office environment with the butt sitting down all the while has been the best thing that happened in my life! As my fats finally have the chance to grow! But now, they are gone! Gone for the bad!
If being tired is not enough, let's hear what my colleague got to say!
One of my colleague commented that i have become more skinny, and also say that my elbow are like sticks. And she say i am a little way off too skinny. While trying to assure her that i am trying to eat more, i really regret in my loss of appetiate when that incident happened.
Can anyone out there tell me how do one put on weight....in a healthy manner?
Yoo Hoo...... can can? But please don't advise me to eat more diary products like cheese....EEwks! Cause i have cheese-phobia! :P
I am now as tired as a zoombie. My brain is very tired and i keep yawning....
*YawnNnnnnnNNnnnn*........ You can imagine my pair of garfield eyes staring at the screen now.Well, last evening when i went home, the lift actually broke down. With that, i finally execute my "exercise" plan and took the stairs all the way to my house. You must be thinking, what is the big deal. The big deal is that, my house is at SIXTEEN storey!!! *Faint* At times like this, i will wondered why my sisters took a unit so HIGH up. By the time i reach the doorstep, i am panting and sweating. And the good news is the lift still looks dead, and i have only 20 more minutes to gobble up my dinner and rush to my student's house for tuition. If the minute i step out of my house and the lift is still not alive, i got to walk all the way down from level 16 to level 1. Luckily, it did not failed me and i do not need to break my legs! :)
By the time i reach home from my tuition, i am tired from my work and the complimentary exercise. *Hee Hee* I planned to sleep at 11 plus but Ms Huiling rang and need my help. Yes, she is planning an advertisement to be put up on NTUC members magazine. (She is working in NTUC). The advertisement is to bring awareness of the priviledge of Ntuc Union card to more people. I have already helped her brainstorm a design concept out and she is now liaising with the Ad Agency to get the work done. But to our disappointment, the design is not good at all. So Huiling asked me to help her think of a better design to carry out our concept.
This is why that brings me to macDonalds having breakfast with her at 9.20am just now. Oh yes, our appointment is at 9 am but i am late again. I quickly go through with her my ideas and swallowed my breakfast and reach office at near to 10am.
That is why I am so tired now. Gosh, i am really dead tired! (-o-) ~
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Find out that my patience level towards strangers is dropping tremendously. Once you pull out any mean and rude stunts, do not blame me for being crude. Sorry, but this is how i am now. I did try to contain my anger and impatience, but do pardon me if i leak out some. Am i turning into an impatient girl? Yes i am, but no worries, just towards strangers. As i do not bother how they think about me.
Incident I (At Guess, with Noorlin and Jinyi)
I am taking the chio chio backview of Ms Noorlin while she is trying on her sexy jeans when this bald male sales assistant talk with a intruding rude tone.
"May i know if you are taking photos?" he said, with his eyes fixed on me, as if i am doing some crime.
"Oh, we are just comparing the outcome." I said with a "Nothing-is-wrong" attitude.
"You cannot take photos here." he said with an attitude as if i am planning to steal the designs of the clothes... (shitty attitude)
"Oh, then i take and i delete it? Can?" i retorted, with a "So What" attitude.
Ok, i know i am unreasonable. No photos are allowed in boutiques like Guess. But i just could not tolerate their attitude. Unless they tell it to me pleasantly, why should i give them a nice smile and hide away my cameraphone? I did reflect on my act but i sill find his unacceptable.
Incident II (On Annie's boyfriend car with other 2 girls)
As everyone know, i am as blur as a sotong. Let alone to know which road leads from Ang Mo Kio to Hougang. I will only go "Ah!!! Turn left" to any pleasant drivers that drive me home when i see any familiar roads near Hougang. So on last Saturday night after Alex Toh's concert, nice Adrian offered to give us a ride home. Things are fine till Huiling alighted and while Adrain is driving to my house. One girl is left sitting beside me, which is a Malaysian. Another girl sitting with Adrain is his good friend. As the car reach Kovan, Adrain is lost and do not know where to go. In regards to the very first statement i made in this paragraph, obviously i do not know which road to proceed next to head to my home. And seriously, i feel embrassed and a bit guilty to let Adrain trial and error. While he do so, the Malaysian girl beside me start to prompt me questions like i am an iodiot.
"So is this place near to Kovan Central?" .... "I not sure", i replied....
"So as i remember, the salon i go is in front, so should be near already. Should we turn right? Oh, i remember the bus (forget what number) travel here, so what is the route and the next stop?"...
"I not sure...Ahh...You live in Hougang?" i asked her.
"No", she replied. And yes, she talked like she lives in Hougang.
"Is the next 2 MRT stops at Little India, Hougang?" she asked as if i memorized the MRT line.
"No, the next stop should be Boon Keng", i replied, with my anger nearly fuming, as she start to prompt me like i am an iodiot. I have already said that i am not sure of the route, so why should she be acting like "Ms-Know-All" and try to make me regained my "memory"?
"So what is the exact next stop?" she continue prompting.
I have enough of her and give her a "Not sure" and look away. Is the attitude she carries. I do not mind any pleasant mild girl asking me these questions. But with her proud attitude, i actually have 3 seconds of impulsive intention to call her to shut up. The girl who sits in front, soon turn and ask me a question with an attitude of "Goosh-she-dun-knw-her-way-hm?!!!"
"Then how do you go home normally?"
Hey you skinny babe, although i am skinny but i am prettier than her..hahaha...please look here... i do not always travel in car. I love sitting in MRT. I do not recognise the roads.
Soon, as my home is near, i quickly alight and take a deep breath. Ok, 2 silly iodiots and off i made my way home. One more time i meet this kind of "Ms Know All" girl, i am going to not give any mercy and just be crude.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Have a chat with my poly mate, the one which i mentioned in my previous blog. His love is noble. It lets me wonder what is true love. From the acts he have, he is seen as silly. But from another angle, it reflects that if a guy really loves a girl, he can be so silly and loves the girl so much more than himself. His acts put a more clear cut conclusion to my previous relationship. It reflects how much my ex has love me before. Although love cannot be compared, but my polymate has let me see and experienced his love for the girl, which is so deep like a bottomless pit. As compared, even me, the party that claimed to be the one loving, appear so small. I could only say, i love myself more than him.
Although i do not possess a love so noble and strong for him yet, but the only thing i could do for him is to wish him happiness. To love is to let your loved one be free and happy. No hatred must exist.
P/s: Has a feeling that both of them may be back again. Only waiting for the girl to find out who she really loves. Just a feeling.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
What Personality do you have?
Currently, this is mine!
You are a WRCL--Wacky Rational Constructive Leader.
This makes you a Golden God.You think fast and have a smart mouth, and you are a hoot to your friends and razorwire to your enemies. You hold a grudge like a brass ring. You crackle. Although you have a leader's personality, you often choose not to lead, as leaders stray too far from their audience. You probably weren't very popular in high school--the joke's on them!You may be a rock star.
Wackiness: 56/100
Rationality: 60/100
Constructiveness: 60/100
Leadership: 56/100
Try Yours! -> http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1
Monday, July 11, 2005
Yap Yap Yap...not again...i changed my plan again!! Ha Ha Ha!!
Well, cause Salvation Army did not bother to call me at all, so my job is gone. And after some planning, i decided to take up Diploma in Montessori and Diploma in Pre-school Education so i will need to stay on my current job till i get the bonus as i need to pay my school fees. So the resignation letter is well hidden under my sleeves again.
I have sign up for Diploma in Montessori and my lessons start on the first week of August. So my Friday will be gone, as lessons are held on that day, 6.30 - 10pm. So do not wish to see me on Friday for ONE YEAR!!! And I will opt for a teaching position under MMI (Modern Montessori International) after i get my bonus, so around December. So i am prepared to start my saving plan again so i will have enough money to study Diploma in Pre School Education soon after completing this.
Wow, facing my BIG goal and lots of studying that i am going to face, i have get some new stationaries too and i believe my Montessori lesson will be very interesting as they emphasis more on practical then tutorials. Interested in Montessori? Go to this website!http://www.modern-montessori.com
Friday, July 08, 2005
Guessed my position at Salvation army is down the drain. Well, the fact that i can only start work at 01 Aug is why they hesitate in employing me as they need a teacher urgently. So there it goes. Actually i planned to submit my letter today, but i guess since i do not have a new job now, i will submit next Monday, after i tell my sisters my plan. I hope they will give me approval! You must be wondering why am i still submitting the letter even i do not secure a job now. Because the newspaper have a lot of jobs for childcare and tuition teacher and all of them want candidates that can start work immediately. Therefore, i will tell my sisters my plan before submitting on Monday.
Some interesting updates!
Realise my Bambi is so KITTY! She is A CAT!! Goosh!!! Even the book describe papillon has very catlike behaviours. When she use her paws to play or push away your hand, gosh, it looks like a cat! And her beautiful backview, resembles of a cat too! And guess what! Yesterday, while i am removing fish meat from pieces of fish bones, smashing them into a bowl so that i can make them into fish salad, Bambi start looking at me. With yearning eyes, she sit on her butt, in a begging position and stare at me. I ignored her and continue with the pieces of fish. Soon, i hear a slight whine from her. Wow, i never heard her whine when she is begging for food. I bet she love fish a lot! Pitying her, i give her some of the meat and she devour down in delight.
Soon, she is back for MORE. This time, i make the meat into a ball and give it to her. She hold the big ball in her mouth and run away to the living room. I knew she is going to dig a place and bury her "treasure" in my living room, inviting ants! I rush to her and spot her whining miserably while at lost. She is desparately trying to hide her "delight" yet she has no idea where to hide it. Looking at her pathetic look, i feel amused. Start to wonder if i am having a cat too! Bambi is really such a cute dog! Soon, she settled down and eat her fish meatball.
Greedy Bambi squeeze through my hands to sniff my fish salad too when i start eating mine. I am seriously being "disturbed" while eating my fish!! What a night yesterday!! :)
Out of My Comfort Zone? Maybe Soon!
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Received a call from Salvation Army childcare centre. The supervisor, Eunice, asked when i can start work and if i am still interested in the job. Of course i give her a confirmed "yes" but i could not confirm her when i can start work. Instead, i said that is only after she confirm me, then i will know when is the date. Ok, i seems a bit insincere here.
I have roughly asked her about the details of the job and here it is.
Mon - Fri : 9am - 5.30pm
Alt Sat : 7am - 2pm
Pay wise: $1110
Job Scope: Take care of kids, change pampers, feed and bath them. (Like a mother! ;P)
That is all i know. I know the income is very low but childcare teachers (w/o qualifications) roughly get around this price range. She say that she will confirm my position with me tommorrow but i could sense her a bit of unhappiness when i cannot confirm her my last day. And need her to confirm me first instead. Ok, i have found out when is the earliest i can start work and i will call her back later.
If you think that i am going to stop here, you are wrong! I will take up either Diploma in Early Childhood Studies or a Diploma in Montessori and both courses will take me 2/1/2 years to complete. A bit too long isn't it? I can move on to Diploma in Early Childhood Studies (Leadership) to be a supervisor or i can move along the Montessori line if i would want to set up a childcare centre of my own in future to come. So this a path i have yet to consider about. Both will take me about 5 years to acheive.
Well, i just hope that i can get the job and move on to my next career path. Although the ladder is hard to climb but at least i have found what i want.
The next step is to train up my physical condition and take up singing (to know how to project my voice) so as to take up the job well.
P/s: Although it is just a small minor low paid job to anyone, but is the point of doing what i like that is important. As one can only succeed by doing something he/she really likes. I will face a tough start but i believe with my passion, i can move on!
Monday, July 04, 2005
Finally made a comeback! Yes, i have finally settled and heal my heart to come back in the blog world and share my story with everyone of my darling friends! I notice that my posting must keep going cause i want to move on with my usual circle of wonderful poly friends! Fear not my darlings! Your pal, Carole is standing Strong! I will not be hit down with this crisis! I will instead improve myself and be a better Carole, for my next one.
Sorry, i do not like to mention words like "the one", "sweetie", "boyfriend" kinda stuffs. As now, all these still gross me out and send fear down my spine. Cause it seems like after giving all i have to offer, true and selflessness, this is what i get back. I can only say that humans are selfish. Although deep in my heart, i really feel that taking 2 years to jump out of this mess is way too long and "time consuming" for me. I can only say that i do not like to be hold back by a person who do not love me. I regard this as a selfish act. I will forgive however.
But the point is that if the person still expect me to be friends soon after this whole incident (which he did), i find that he is totally not showing any concern for me. I did mentioned in my blog that staying as friends now is impossible. That is reasonable i believe. I am the one giving out my heart and love, the one getting hurt is me. Why couldn't he just leave me in peace? I do not know, but i find it total irritating when he still ring or sms me during this time. I simply ignored and hang up. Yet he have the guts to ask me why i treat him this way. I am angry yet my heart is breaking. I really don't mind being friends, but just not now. Why can't guys understand? Do you think you can get the best of both worlds? Staying as a friend yet not bearing any responsibility as a boyfriend? I do not give in to such a selfish act.
To heal completely, i need to shut him off completely from my life. I do not wish to be churn into the loop of never ending outcome with him.
Thanks to all my friends, which give me a lot of advise, and especially to one of them, who actually scold me back to my senses. And that is why i am able to stand here again and strive for e a better future. Although he still come back in my mind (cause he call n sms me. DUH) but i will forget him, and get on with my life. I could now see a clear blue sky with no restrictions right in front of me. No commitment strangling me now. This is how i enjoy life now. Lead a life of my own. Get a job which i like. And stay hungry and stay foolish. That is the only way to accomplish my dreams.
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